So its been a rough few weeks. Physically recovering from the half marathon has been easier than I thought it would be. Spiritually I have known what to do in times like these since I was a little girl. Emotionally has been the hardest. But all three of these can be tied together in the healing process.
This post is more for understanding how to take care of yourselves in all aspects. Sometimes we have to experience something to really understand the struggle.
Physically I knew exactly what to do to recover from the half marathon. I took a few days where I kept moving and stretching my muscles. I iced my knees when needed and I made sure to not aggravate them further. I didn't run, but we did go for walks, and did not let the sore muscles hold me back.
Spiritually to help with the passing of my Grandfather and Beloved friend/sister Tina, I did what I have been doing my whole life. I went to church, prayed with all my heart, and read the scriptures. I found knowledge and comfort in that they are happy and living with our Heavenly Father. They are watching over us.
Emotionally has been the hardest part. Even though I know that Tina and my grandfather are well and being taken care of there is still the emotional battle of just missing them. With each passing day there is a moment, most of the time its when I am alone and its a quiet moment that I feel the sting of their passing.
It different for me now because the Lord has been such a blessing. There are times when I feel like I can fall into a pit and just cry and never stop, but Heavenly Father has blessed me with the reminder that He is all around us. The biggest reminder that has been helping me with the emotional and spiritual healing is my son. He notices when someone needs to be comforted.
He has always been G-dad's (grandpa's) shadow. They are joined at the hip when G-dad is around. During my grandpa's (my dad's, dad) funeral, he was so loving to my dad. The whole time he wanted to make sure G-dad was okay. That was a huge comfort to my dad. I don't have a picture from the funeral but here is a picture that sums up their relationship pretty well!
Today we went to Latimer reservation where my mom and Tina would run our church's girls camp. Each year for 1 week the girls in our area from ages 12-18 spend a week building their testimonies of Christ and build a relationship with Him. They spend 6 months of the year planning and working to make this camp fun and fulfilling for each girl as an individual. We went to the look out point where you just leave your worries behind. It is one of Tina's favorite places. Here is the day that we were trying to get the full closer we need. My son, once we got there only wanted Gigi to hold him. He wouldn't come to me, my brother, or walk around by himself. He knew that his Gigi needed him as a comfort. So he held onto her.
I can't deny that the Lord is telling me its okay to be sad, but remember to find joy in the journey. He doesn't want us to be sad all the time. He understands that we are sad because we miss them.
I miss them both! I will miss my grandpa's jokes and seeing his garden. I will miss Tina and her laughter and how she always wanted to make sure I was taken care of!
There are still some nights where I cry and feel like I will always have a hole in my heart. But those moments don't take over because the Lord wants me to be happy and that reminder is through my son. His smile is infectious!
Remembering to find joy in the journey is the hard part, but its not impossible! I am making the choice to remember the good times when those hard moments come. They will come, they always do, but they don't have to last.
"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain."
Remember to dance, especially in the rain!
This post is more for understanding how to take care of yourselves in all aspects. Sometimes we have to experience something to really understand the struggle.
Physically I knew exactly what to do to recover from the half marathon. I took a few days where I kept moving and stretching my muscles. I iced my knees when needed and I made sure to not aggravate them further. I didn't run, but we did go for walks, and did not let the sore muscles hold me back.
Spiritually to help with the passing of my Grandfather and Beloved friend/sister Tina, I did what I have been doing my whole life. I went to church, prayed with all my heart, and read the scriptures. I found knowledge and comfort in that they are happy and living with our Heavenly Father. They are watching over us.
Emotionally has been the hardest part. Even though I know that Tina and my grandfather are well and being taken care of there is still the emotional battle of just missing them. With each passing day there is a moment, most of the time its when I am alone and its a quiet moment that I feel the sting of their passing.
It different for me now because the Lord has been such a blessing. There are times when I feel like I can fall into a pit and just cry and never stop, but Heavenly Father has blessed me with the reminder that He is all around us. The biggest reminder that has been helping me with the emotional and spiritual healing is my son. He notices when someone needs to be comforted.
He has always been G-dad's (grandpa's) shadow. They are joined at the hip when G-dad is around. During my grandpa's (my dad's, dad) funeral, he was so loving to my dad. The whole time he wanted to make sure G-dad was okay. That was a huge comfort to my dad. I don't have a picture from the funeral but here is a picture that sums up their relationship pretty well!
Today we went to Latimer reservation where my mom and Tina would run our church's girls camp. Each year for 1 week the girls in our area from ages 12-18 spend a week building their testimonies of Christ and build a relationship with Him. They spend 6 months of the year planning and working to make this camp fun and fulfilling for each girl as an individual. We went to the look out point where you just leave your worries behind. It is one of Tina's favorite places. Here is the day that we were trying to get the full closer we need. My son, once we got there only wanted Gigi to hold him. He wouldn't come to me, my brother, or walk around by himself. He knew that his Gigi needed him as a comfort. So he held onto her.
I can't deny that the Lord is telling me its okay to be sad, but remember to find joy in the journey. He doesn't want us to be sad all the time. He understands that we are sad because we miss them.
I miss them both! I will miss my grandpa's jokes and seeing his garden. I will miss Tina and her laughter and how she always wanted to make sure I was taken care of!
There are still some nights where I cry and feel like I will always have a hole in my heart. But those moments don't take over because the Lord wants me to be happy and that reminder is through my son. His smile is infectious!
Remembering to find joy in the journey is the hard part, but its not impossible! I am making the choice to remember the good times when those hard moments come. They will come, they always do, but they don't have to last.
"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain."
Remember to dance, especially in the rain!
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